Not sure if anyone will be reading this and I don't really care if they do. This is just a place for me to come and express my feelings about things going on in my life. I was asked today how people get so much food stamps. First I don't make the rules as to how people get so much or don't get any. But how can you ask me about people being on food stamps when you get food stamps and don't work a regular job. Do I ask you why you dont work and why you get food stamps. I just work there and there is no way we can police everyone and go to peoples homes and check and see if those people really are there. I get so tired of people complaning about programs and yet I dont see you trying to do anything about getting out of those programs. Why take it out on me cause you only get a certain amount? These programs can't last. I am so tired of people. They want to complain but not be a part of the solution. The end of this one!!
If gas was not so high I would be headed to a bigger church so that I could just get lost in the congregation. If I had wings I fly far far away. Away from everything and everyone. Oh how selfish that is of me. I have lived all my life for everyone else. I have sacrificed so much even tho I am sure they don't think so. My family deserves so much more that I can give them. My poor husband really deserves a better wife and companion because I feel like I have not been the best for him.I upset him alot with not knowing what I want. I know I have not been a good mother or mother in law either. I am not pleased with myself so it is hard for other people to please me. I am most of the time depressed but I try to hide it because as a Christian I am suppose to be filled with the joy of the Lord and I should be trusting Him more. I feel alot of people depend on me or look to me to know everything but I don't. I am so tired of life. I want to go to heaven so somethings are out of the question even tho I have thought about it since I was a teenager. Life is not fair or easy how well I know that. If any of my family reads this they will be upset but I feel as if I have no one to talk to so I have to write it all here. Dont want to dump my garbage on anyone cause that is just what it is is garbage. Well I will write more later as I feel better just getting this out.
